Sunday, October 17, 2010

Rollercoasters Are More Fun With a Friend or Two

Someone told me just the other day: "The rollercoaster does up too." Makes perfect sense. But I'm tired. Tired of searching for fulfillment and just creating more noise in my life. The amount of stuff that I am interested in is mind-boggling, yet I don't master any of it. I'm tired of trying to be a better person to the many, yet failing the people that are near and dear. 200+ facebook friends, yet all alone on my darkest days. Aside from my parents, no-one calls unless they're returning my call or they need something. Would anyone outside of work and school notice if I just disappeared? I need an inspiration and some major course corrections before I waste another day on clutter and takers. The hardest part - differentiating between the important things and the clutter, and between those who truly care and those who don't. The only thing I know is that this is not about being single, but about being alone with my feelings, my fears, my hopes, my struggles, my victories, my life, and realizing that I have been so for as long as I can remember.